So sick

Since I took my nclex exam I got sick. I always have a headache, I also had a mild fever at times, I have body malaise, I have tonsillitis, I have dry cough, I have dysmenorrhea, and I can’t speak clearly. I also had dreams related to my nclex. Oh my gosh! I’m getting anxious is that it? Since I have done with my exam, I just didn’t open my notes any longer and besides I really can’t remember all the questions, I just remember the topics. I don’t have any guts to look for the answers which I know I got it wrong. Huhu. I’m just putting everything to God. He knows the best for me. I’m trying to get chill and unwind but when I got home anxiety attacks me again then I’m getting sick again. I hope I can find a job in a hospital although it’s impossible because it’s really hard to find a job in hospitals. I’m thinking of trying Saudi, I don’t now, but if there’s an opportunity maybe yes maybe no. I don’t know. And still doesn’t know how long will I wait for that nclex result. Grrrr….

Once you go black, you can never go back

It’s over and done. And now, I don’t know.

February 24, 2008, my date of examination in nclex. I’m not emotionally prepared and cried for almost two nights with an unknown etiology (just kidding, it’s just some quarrels in our house), I tried to reschedule my examination date but it can’t be move already. What?! So I grasp my notes coz the next day is my exam. I wasn’t able to read all the notes I had, I wasn’t able also to practice any questions anymore because my brother brought the laptop in his school. I slept around 2:00am, and drink Celecoxib to help me sleep and for my dysmenorrhea.

“I will make decisions about at least 75 clients with individual needs”

Around 4:15am I woke up, rush to the comfort room and took a bath. My mother was with me for moral support. I hope mothers really bring luck. Hehe. We left at 5:30am and ride in a taxi going to Buendia. At 6:30am we’re already at Trident tower. Too early huh? Hehe. Excited? Hehe. We ate our breakfast in Mcdo near Trident tower. The time was so slow for me. I still have 2 hours waiting. At last its already 8:00am we went now in front of Trident tower, the other test takers are their sitting in front of the building. And guess what? 95% of us are all wearing red shirt? Uniform? Haha . I wear red because Mam Anaski said red is for luck and happiness, and I’ll leave everything to luck. The time has come we have now to get inside; we left our ID in the ground floor then went to the 27^th floor (to the testing area). I’m not yet so nervous by that time, I’m excited. Then we present our ATT and passport. After that I went to my locker to leave all my belongings. Then I went to comfort room, then before I went out I said “This is it” I sat and wait for my turn. Then the proctor accompanied me to my designated cubicle. Then the computer run click click click,,, the next would be the actual question. My heart beats really fast and I took a deep breath to calm down. Calm down, Calm down. Whoa! The first question I knew I answered correctly then so on, oh my gosh! There are some questions that I really don’t know the answer and I have no choice to have an “educated guess”. There are lots of prioritization and delegation. I only had 1 sata and 1 computation which I’m not sure again. I budget my time 100 items for 2 hours each so if ever I’ll go till 265 I have enough time. But I felt my exam would really end at 75, and number 75 comes, my last question was delegation. Then when I clicked next, I thought as what they say that the computer will suddenly shut off , oh its not what really happened that’s why I thought I’m going to 76, the screen becomes blurred that I thought its malfunctioning or that is happening because I’ll go to 76 then it turns blue, oh! It’s finished! Then I had survey questions and the computer asked me for a break, I’m thinking why I am still asking for a break when I’m done? I thought again that I’ll go to 76 after this survey. I thought there was really a survey for a break. Hehe. But after that I realized it’s really over. I took it for 2 hours. I don’t know what to feel. I have flat affect. Others cry, others are laughing. Me? I don’t know what to feel. After all that I’ve been prepared, lots of diseases I studied, prioritization and delegation will be thrown up on me. It worries me because I have these 2 questions that I think very easy but very tricky. I’m thinking my level of competency is low because the computer is asking me about that and I’m still not sure about the answer. Then I went out found my mother still sitting in front of Trident tower waiting for me. I still have flat affect and I’m really not sure if I made it. I just leave everything to God. I’m open to possibilities and just have a positive outlook in life. Now I have headache and thinking what I did. Haha. I gave my best and God will do the rest. I’ll just wait for the envelope to come. I hope its thin envelope (with cross fingers). It is time to relax, take a break and have job hunting again in hospitals. Just pray, pray, pray.

“……..I know who holds tomorrow and I know who holds my hand”

Congratulations!!! Jemuel D.V. Marfori, RN

“At least 39,455 or 44.51% out of 88,649 examinees that took the November 2008 Nursing Board have passed, the Professional Regulatory Commission has announced.”

My heart beats fast as I read this announcement when I checked for the latest update for the result. I called Jemuel quickly who is still sleeping by that time. I refresh and refresh the page to see the full list of the passers but it still can’t be found. It took me an hour doing that so I decided to eat my lunch first. I ate so fast because I’m too excited for the result. Feels like I’m the one who took the exam. Hehe. So I went to my computer again to check if its there and OMG! The result was already out!!! It was on a .pdf file so I started to scroll down from A down to M,,, My hands are having tremors and I cant even scroll the mouse and I cant even click the down arrow key. I started to cry and wishing Jemuel will pass as I hardly scrolling down the mouse. Because of nervousness, I can’t go to letter M, I was already in letter Z and I have to scroll up now. So I started down to up, then I was in letter M surnames, I’m really so nervous, the feeling I had when I also looked for my name before. And finally!!!! 24006 Marfori, Jemuel De Vera. He passed!!! He’s already a registered nurse, although He didn’t top the board exam. hehe. Wohooo! Thank you Lord!!! And thank you St.Jude. Now what’s next??? I don’t know. Hehe. The next would be me. I’ll be taking my nclex-rn exam on Tuesday. I’m so inspired and I hope I can make it too. Back to study again. But this is really a big celebration for Jemuel. The question now is, when we will be going out?

Congratulations to all who passed the November 2008 NLE!!!

Hope in hopelessness= Faith

I attended the novena mass today in Saint Jude church at 5:00pm. The homily is very meaningful. It really touches my heart. Father said that great love is when you love the person despite of the pain he/she did to you. I’m very much related with that, but before. Hehe. Maybe I have proven it already and I’m moving on, we both are moving on, although sometimes it lingers in my mind. hehe.  Anyway one thing about the homily of Father I can’t forget, He says “There is hope in hopelessness and that’s Faith and when you have faith, Jesus is with you” Awwww, I’ll bring it till the day I will took my exam and forever in my life. I’m very nervous already. I hope and pray that what I’m studying now is will be given appearance in my actual exam. This is the prayer of Mam Anaski before she starts our review before. Haha. I’m so confused, nervous, anxious and excited to wear the blouse I bought today that I will wear on my exam. Haha. Its color red for luck, I need all the luck in the world. Whew!Whatever happens it happens for a reason.

Expect the Unexpected

What a day! I took the qualifying exam for staff nurses in Veterans Memorial Medical Center today. I prepared for this exam like I slept early and had a

breakfast. I ate tuna sandwich, gelatin and drink Milo. Why I’m saying this because something happened beyond what I expected. It’s really true that “Expect the unexpected”. Well I took the exam at 8am. The exam was 100 items; it’s difficult for me so I’m nervous that I won’t be having anymore chance to be hired in Veterans. But what it makes more difficult for me was the coolness inside the room and it gets colder and colder because I felt something, I thought I was just hungry but minute by minute the feeling becomes different. My stomach is aching so much and I felt I want to defecate. Wahahaha! So I started thinking what should I do, should I go to the restroom? But I don’t have any tissue anyway. I kept that feeling and just answer and answer just to finish the exam and get out of the room. There’s a lot of computation in the exam and calculator was not allowed, Oh my!!! I finished the exam at 9:30 that was the allotted time so I just finished in time. The feeling subsides a little bit and I thought I’m just hungry by that time. I planned to go home after that but the jeep didn’t stop to the stoplight where should I be waiting for an fx. So I just dropped by in SM North. I planned to have breakfast in SM but then the feeling of something came back again and now I know and very clear, I have to go to the restroom. But SM North is not fully open by that time, waaaaaaaa!!! Should I go home or go to Jemuel’s house??? So I decided to go to Jemuel’s house. I went to their restroom, and that’s it! Haha! But still my stomach is aching until now. I don’t know what’s happening in my stomach. I loss appetite too. And I’m sure this is not diarrhea. Uhm, I don’t know but I hope this will get over. By the way about the exam again, I don’t think I made it. Haha! But I still hope and believe in miracles.

No turning back

National Council Licensure Examination (NCLEX(R))    19 Feb 2009

CONFIRMATION OF NCLEX  EXAMINATION – APPOINTMENT

Candidate Identification Number: 21315559
Type of Test: NCLEX-RN

NCLEX EXAMINATION CONFIDENTIALITY

Candidates should be aware and understand that the disclosure of any examination materials including the nature or content of examination items, before, during, or after the examination is a violation of law. Candidates must follow the NCLEX Examination Candidate Rules which are listed in the NCLEX® Candidate Bulletin. Violations of confidentiality and/or candidate rules can result in criminal prosecution or civil liability and/or disciplinary actions by the licensing agency including the denial of licensure.

Your NCLEX(R) Examination has been scheduled as indicated below.

Date: Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Time: 9:00:00 AM

Center: Pearson Professional Center # 54555
27th Floor, Trident Tower 312 Senator Gil Puyat Avenue, Makati City,
Manila,  1227
+63 2 887 2198
DIRECTIONS TO THE TESTING LOCATION
From Buendia LRT Station take a Guadalupe-bound jeepney.  Trident Tower is located immediately after the old Shell Maya station, just off the Ayala-Buendia stoplight.  Examinees coming from EDSA (Buendia MRT or Guadalupe Tulay) should take an LRT-Taft-bound jeepney and alight just before the Ayala Avenue – Malugay intersection.  Those coming in from Ayala Avenue should walk towards Buendia via Geronimo Street (RCBC Plaza and Metrobank GT Towers)
Please check all of the above information carefully.

If any of the appointment information is incorrect, you may reschedule up to 24 hours prior to your scheduled appointment through one of the following methods.

* Go to the NCLEX Candidate website at www.pearsonvue.com/nclex

* Call NCLEX Candidate Services at one of the following phone numbers:

United States – 1.866.496.2539 (toll free) Monday – Friday 7am – 7pm US CT
Asia Pacific Region – +603.8314.9605 Monday – Friday 8:30am – 6pm AET
Europe, Middle East, Africa – +44 161 855 7445 Monday – Friday 8am – 6pm CET
India – +91 120 439 7837 Monday – Friday 9am – 6pm IT

If you need to change your appointment for any reason, you must do so at least 24 hours prior to your scheduled appointment through one of the methods described above.  Follow the schedule below if you need to change your appointment.

For a test scheduled on Saturday, Sunday or Monday, call on or before the time of your appointment on Friday.
For a test scheduled on Tuesday, call on or before the time of your appointment on Monday.
For a test scheduled on Wednesday, call on or before the time of your appointment on Tuesday.
For a test scheduled on Thursday, call on or before the time of your appointment on Wednesday.
For a test scheduled on Friday, call on or before the time of your appointment on Thursday.

PLEASE NOTE: Leaving a message on an answering machine does not constitute giving 24 hours advance notice for rescheduling or un-scheduling your testing appointment. You must either reschedule or un-schedule your appointment on the NCLEX Candidate website or speak with an individual on the NCLEX Candidate Services line to reschedule or un-schedule your appointment.

If you fail to arrive for your appointment, or fail to reschedule or un-schedule without giving the appropriate notice, you will forfeit your examination fee and your Authorization to Test (ATT) will be invalidated. You will be required to re-register and pay the examination fee again.  There are no exceptions for any reason.

If you do not test within the validity dates as indicated on your ATT, you will lose your NCLEX Examination fee. THESE VALIDITY DATES CANNOT BE EXTENDED, REGARDLESS OF THE REASON.

ACCEPTABLE IDENTIFICATION

When you arrive at the test center, you will be required to present your ATT and one form of acceptable identification. The printed first and last names on your identification must match exactly the printed first and last names on your ATT. Your identification must be printed in English language letters, must be valid and unexpired (clearly stated), and have a recent photograph and a signature signed in English. The only acceptable forms of identification at test centers located in the United States, American Samoa, Guam, Northern Mariana Islands and Virgin Islands are U.S. drivers license (not temporary or learners permit), U.S. state identification, and passport.  The only acceptable identification for international test centers and Puerto Rico is a passport. No other identification, including learner permits, is acceptable for admittance to the NCLEX examination.

Please note – Identification from embargoed countries will not be accepted at the test centers. For further information please contact Pearson VUE at one of the phone numbers listed in the NCLEX Candidate Bulletin or at www.pearsonvue.com/nclex.

You will not be admitted to the examination without the proper identification and your ATT; if either of these requirements is not met, you will be turned away; if you arrive without these materials, you will be required to re-register and re-pay to take the examination.

If you lose or misplace your ATT, call NCLEX Candidate Services at one of the numbers listed on this confirmation and request a duplicate ATT.

Go for the gold!!! I have extended and extended my schedule of my exam. Now I’m tired and I know I prepared for this exam and only God can help me. I’m really excited on taking this exam. I hope I will do well. Pray for me=)

Chicken joy Dream

I have a dream today, I’m with my friends Jemuel, Hanna, My 2 high school friends which I can’t remember. We were in the mall and planned to watch a movie which is the last full show. Jemuel and I treated them in a dinner. What’s the celebration? I don’t know. Then we were planning to meet Paul, and then Jemuel told me to buy a chicken joy at Jollibee for Paul. We meet Paul and I gave him the chicken joy. He ate it and we were sitting in a cafe bar waiting Paul to be finish. It’s really late by that time and I wasn’t able to tell it to my parents. I got home around 2am with them and they stayed in my room. Then Hanna who has 3rd eye saw someone in my room. It’s really scary because I’m alone sleeping in my room. Then I woke up. Hehe.

My Valentines Day, February 14,2009

Today is Valentines Day, so what? I’m just kidding. I woke up around 10:00am because I have an appointment to my OB-Gynecologist at 11:00am, tik tak tik tak,, oh my gosh! It’s already 11am and I’m still in our house. I dressed up quickly without thinking what I’ll be wearing (of course I want to look beautiful,,hehe) and I even wasn’t able to blow dry my dry and fly away hair. I arrived at Healthway, SM the Block at 11:30am. I also texted my doctor to wait for me but sadly, she already left. So I just told the receptionist to refer me to other doctor. hehe. After that, I went to URC to get the latest update for my nclex exam. Although I don’t have schedule yet, and I’m really ambivalent which date I should choose 20 or 23,,, but right now I’m thinking 20,,, then next minute 23,, hehe. Then I left after getting the update. I was in MRT Guadalupe Station and I saw my college friend Gabriel we talked about how we doing in our career while waiting for the train to arrive. There are a lot of people by that time so I wasn’t able to join Gabriel in a ride. After waiting for a couple of minutes I was able to ride MRT. Then I arrived at Trinoma, to have a date? He gave me a 1 dozen of red roses which I eventually give to my mother afterwards,, wahahaha. I was so hungry by that time and there are a lot of people in trinoma so we ate at Trinomas food court in Reyes Barbeque. Then I felt sleepy that I wanted to go home so we just watched a movie instead of going home. We transferred to SM North and watched Valkyrie. Valkyrie has a very beautiful story but a sad ending like Titanic. I recommend that you watch it. We went inside the cinema in the middle of the story so I don’t understand what’s happening in the story and I’m still sleepy by that time. And then I fell asleep,,, and not just me, he too. So we just slept in the cinema. hehe. But of course we started it all over again. The movie was ended at 7pm. After that I felt sleepy again, so we decided to go home and he joins me in the ride. Well it’s rarely happen so I’m happy for the effort. One thing I can’t forget is the surot in the fx. It’s very itchy. Grrrr. Then I got home realizing with an empty stomach. I was so hungry and there’s no food cooked. Lucky enough, there’s a roll mocha cake available. My stomach was now happy. hehe. Then back to basic, review again and wait for the result of the November 2008 NLE exam. At least we were able to celebrate it, because sometimes we just celebrate it with a one big fight. Hehe. And thanks for all the effort (you know who you are,,, hehe), I really appreciate it. That’s all for today,,, a very sleepy day,,, to what they call Valentines day.

Community Health Nurse???

President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo announced the job offerings for people wary of losing their jobs as a result of the global financial crisis during a multisectoral labor summit in Malacañang Monday.

Applicants are now being screened for the “Nurses Assigned in Rural Areas” (NARS), a new government program that will send at least five nurses to each of the 1,000 poorest towns in the country, Ms Arroyo said in her speech.

Under the NARS program, Ms Arroyo said the nurses would be paid at least P8,000 monthly for a year’s employment split into two six-month tours of duty. The salaries would cost the government around P500 million, she said.

The President urged local governments to contribute a counterpart fund to add at least P2,000 to the nurses’ salaries.

waaaaaaa anu ba to??? haha,,,

Granny in my dreams,,,,

I had a dream, I went to Batangas through an airplane with my father and younger brother, I don’t know why we went there then I was wearing suddenly a Spanish dress, We parked our car and walk still I don’t know where we going. Then I was left alone because I’m very slow walking so I run to get with them. Then we went inside a house and I saw my cousins there from Canada. They were all there. They are deciding who will go to lead the prayer. Then as I look around I found out that I was in a burial of my grandmother. They I prayed for her then I get my cell phone when suddenly my friend Caye called me up and asking me what nursing school can I suggest to her sister as we were chatting,,, I woke up.

My grandmother died many years ago because of diabetes. I was able to visit her on her burial but after that I wasn’t able to visit her in cemetery. I’m thinking she wanted me to visit her.